proliferating acedia

Saturday, March 6, 2010.

12:28 AM

Sigh. Shit happens. When both sides are people you don’t wanna hurt, things get ugly. I realise that when it comes to problems like this, I tend to side with the women. I'm not a chauvinist. As an outsider, you’re able to see things as a whole, and pinpoint where problems arise. Trouble is, how do you bring it up without hurting anyone?

I have a clearer idea of how the female mind works, not a complete one, obviously, but all I can say is that it is unfathomable. Invalid reasons will become valid. Wrongs will become rights. If you really want that person to be happy, do whatever it takes then. If you have to destroy your ego for her, so be it. Put away your damned ego. Think for the poor girl, think like the girl. Place yourself in her shoes. It's not anyone's fault that it doesn't work out. There's just no chemistry/fate/luck/whatever you call it. If it can, it can. Now if you really wanna make a change then start with yourself, otherwise be content with your present situation.

I feel so prophetic. Sage-like. Shit. I need some sleep. 6 hours of sleep a day just makes me feel like I'm going back to school again.

No, I'm not having relationship issues. I'm perfectly fine, thank you.

Gym twice in two days kills you.

Bought 3 new books. 3 for 2 at Borders. The Charlemagne Pursuit by Steve Berry. Golden Buddha by Clive Cussler and Craig Dirgo. Assassin's Creed. Renaissance by Oliver Bowden.

I like thriller books. Mystery books. Crime books. All kinds of books. Reading some literature killer novel a friend lent me. A Fraction Of The Whole by Steve Toltz.

Books based on video games are kinda cool, but so far I've only truly enjoyed the rendition of MGS 1 in paperback edition. I'm hoping Assassin's Creed Renaissance is gonna be as enjoyable as well. Warcraft lore is awesome. New book out. Stormrage by Arthur A.Knaak. It costs 48 bucks. Hardcover. Nearly got it but the price was too steep. Damn.

Live like you're dying. Really. I feel so content with my life suddenly. Then again, it'll probably be back in a day or two. All the worries and insecurities. heh.

Lear

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